Senior researcher, specialist in the field…
And people think it is a nice job. A job with status, a job that pays well with additional benefits, a job that has a certain certainty of not getting fired. But that are the parts they all like to tell you, to encourage you.
But there is a less fun side to the job, a darker side to the job.
People want the status, the money, and everything else they can get their greedy hands on like the selfish beings horny for power that they are. But do they want to carry the responsability? Some might. Depends about what you are responsible for.
A team? Sure, might be relatively easy to handle depending on who you are dealing with. An anomaly? That's a bit trickier. Some, like humans, like a team, are predictable. Easy to check up on, easy to experiment with. Some are not, but that's when you call the guards or even an MTF and call it a day.
Sometimes people get traumatized on the job, die on the job, suffer worse fates on the job.
But then the hard part comes, the part where I come in. The administrative clean up. And I can hear you think; "How is that the hardest part of the job?".
Let me tell you, the description does not represent it accurately, if at all. Like a eupheumism, it is presented like a meal on a silver plate, but like rotten flesh it is hard to swallow. It
Some things are just not stated in the small print because they are considered good work ethics. Although sometimes I wonder how ethical they truly are. The clean up is everything except clean.
Falsefying causes of death and burrying the corpse are just common practise here. At least I get to go home early when there is no corpse at all. But other clean ups, the terminations, those can get less pretty. Walking to a desk where one works without any idea he's about to be shot or poisoned and dragging away the body. Some have the luck dying in their own home of bed, I envy them It likely won't end like that for me.
Giving out amnestics to their collegae, sometimes even my own, is also not the best part of the job. They probably did it to me as well but how am I supposed to know? It's classified. Honestly, I'd rather not know. Ignorance isn't perce bliss, but there are things you just don't want to know. I once asked if they could erase or adjust my memory as well. They told me it would erase my experience for the job partially as well, and that was something they were not willing to sacrifice, unlike my mental health.
No, I'd say the thoughest part of the job is continuing. And it sometimes makes me want to quit. But as I said already, It won't end like that for me. I know they are coming for me, maybe, just maybe, that truly is the worst part of the job.